Latest Posts – rishiknots

Thank you for showing up

rishiknots blog — Tue, 18 Jul 2023 21:56:35 +0000

This is my last post for rishiknots. The time has come to put this project to rest. I’ve been sort of just spinning my wheels lately. I’ll take that as a sign that it’s time to move on. 3HO won’t change. 3H0 can’t change. I’m hoping that after all’s said and done with the IHRP …

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A Haunted Place

rishiknots blog — Mon, 27 Mar 2023 15:17:44 +0000

According to not one, but several of the individuals running for SSSC board seats, one out of “the three greatest challenges facing the SSSC Board, our umbrella organizations, and our spiritual community at this time” is “ensuring a successful future for Miri Piri Academy“ There, in black and white. According to the SSSC website candidate’s …

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Dr. Alexandra Stein’s Report

rishiknots blog — Fri, 06 Jan 2023 19:49:43 +0000

In the fall of 2022 a 3HO SGA took it upon themselves to commission a small study on the impacts of 3HO childhoods, through the lens of attachment theory and trauma. It’s another vital piece of material that can be helpful in a myriad of ways. Consider downloading the pdf and sharing it among the …

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Remembering is Hard

rishiknots blog — Tue, 27 Sep 2022 19:47:21 +0000

It’s like climbing a mountain. I climbed that long, difficult and painful mountain a long time ago, and I came down the other side in one piece. You can too. I was fortunate in my process that much of it was done with the support of the graduate studies program I was enrolled in that’s …

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Filing for Reparations. …what counts as Harm?

rishiknots blog — Mon, 13 Jun 2022 18:11:48 +0000

3HO’s 2nd gens are currently being faced with something unprecedented: Reparations for the Harm we suffered. It’s about time. But listen… This is only the beginning. And until all 3HO SGA’s are compensated, it’s not finished. That’s what it will mean to me for this to be successful. 3HO’s not going to to a truly …

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Thirteen Years…

rishiknots blog — Thu, 25 Mar 2021 22:53:05 +0000

I’m coming up on the 13 year mark of blogging about growing up in Yogi Bhajan’s 3HO Kundalini Yoga cult. I left the cult in 1994 (got kicked out actually). I could have fully walked away and just never looked back. Sometimes I question why I didn’t do just that. But, I didn’t. I spoke …

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Trying to understand Trauma-Bonds

rishiknots blog — Wed, 16 Sep 2020 22:11:41 +0000

The 3HO kids–the SGA’s–are a cohort. I am a member of this cohort. This cohort is living with multiple dimensions of traumatic, adverse childhood experiences (ACEs). So it’s no surprise that we trigger each other whether in person or online. It’s no surprise that things–such as chat groups and zoom meetings and other attempts to …

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The Land of Entrapment

rishiknots blog — Mon, 31 Aug 2020 17:12:15 +0000

There’s a time in every young adult’s life that they realize their parents are imperfect and fallible. This post is about that – and about my time living in the Española 3HO ashram when I was in my late-teens. It was the early nineties. I had just completed one year at New Mexico Military Institute, …

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What is our value?

rishiknots blog — Tue, 18 Aug 2020 08:00:00 +0000

Okay, so I’m sure many people know by now the SSS Collaborative Response Team is offering mental health services as part of their response process. To do this they contracted an outside provider called Concern Health. If you want 3HO to pay for your mental health care–which is likely totally related to your relationship to …

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Feelings: Speaking Up & Being Heard

rishiknots blog — Wed, 12 Aug 2020 15:14:34 +0000

I feel like I am sitting back and witnessing a weird, ironic train-wreck in the cult I was raised in, but one that I feel useless to do anything about. As a kid, I got so used to not being heard. From a very early age. I spoke up about being hungry and bored at …

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